its just life

i waste most of my time , wondering why i wont be good enough for anyone. But it's weird that the most nonsense reasons that i dealt every breakup is just ''you're way too good for me, i don't deserve you and you deserve someone better'' . Its just that there will always be questions in my head about this . Its just when this excuses came out from their mouth , it doesn't make sense at all . I thought if you're too good for them , they will keep you and be the best version of them on trying the best to be the best for you. Be good for you , just for you cause isn't it how love suppose to be like? but they didn't. They left you for that nonsense reason and here you are wondering why you wont be good enough . If you're good enough they'll keep you . I guess that's just how life works , or maybe they're not meant for you and you have to accept it and don't put the blame on yourself or maybe it is true after all you're actually too good for them and you deserve someone better but deep down your heart you are actually hoping for them to change. still it wont happen . It seems like this girl need to wait again again and again , someone will come into her life and will fill the empty spots in her heart .